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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 23:54

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But it wasn’t much.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I said to her

My life is so biszare .

How should I go about convincing my mother that my foreign online boyfriend isn't out to get my holes or scam me?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And i lived it daily.

Do you think there will ever be a movie that features a line such as “You graduated at the top of your class in liberal arts, we need your help”?

One cannot live in the past .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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He knew the spot.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

If you caught a shoplifter at your yard sale, how would you handle it?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

How can I get my ex-husband to love me again?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We all went to grammer schools

I couldn’t, believe it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im still living with it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Would this be the day?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He resisted the act ,that day.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She married twice! .

I waited trembling.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I write beautiful poetry .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I will be 64.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She was in good health!

Comes on , in middle age.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Ive learnt so much.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was 9 years of age.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

All the time i was locked up.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We were not on the streets..

She loved him until the end.

When she asked me how she looked .

(And it was in our own minds.)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

What did i know ?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I have no regrets .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was very sick at this time too.

This is soul school!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Who then, do I blame.?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I don,t even have a pension.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I could never make a relationship work though!

So whats the point in blame.

I was seconnd youngest,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

It was going to be , some day.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Put me off passion for life!!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

So, i spoilt her more .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My family never makes their pension either.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I think the readers, may guess!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But, we were locked up after school.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She found it foreign!.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As i do to all so called friends.?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She wouldn,t have been !

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I was scared of men, in general

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I never cut or harmed myself..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)